God, I believe You are listening.....

Today marks the 11th day of yet another cycle of abnormal bleeding.  A few days into this cycle, I had started some really healthy supplements - bentonite, diatomaceous earth, Magnesium Citrate, and Vitamin B6.  

My mense looked like it was really drying up already, and then, after almost 24 hrs, the familiar watery clear liquid mixed with bits of pink / brown started again.  Again, I feel very discouraged and wonder what is wrong with my body and Lord why can't I heal my body with all these good eating and supplements.

I feel discouraged Lord, and I feel sad again.  I wish very much that I am pregnant, that I could have conceived at will, and that Celeste won't be lonely and having to entertain herself like she is doing now.  

Lord please help me to balance my hormones.  I don't know what it is I am doing wrong that is causing my body to keep spotting like this.  I have done all the research I could have and I am still clueless.

Lord, I believe that when Jesus died for my sins on the cross, He purchased physical and emotional healing as well, because there is nothing in Your Word that suggests that we must remove physical healing from this dispensation.  You have faithfully healed me emotionally, so You must be willing to heal me physically too.

So here I am Lord, please heal me.  You said that by Your stripes we are healed, and I step forward in faith now to claim the healing that You have already purchased for me when You died for me 2000 years ago.  Lord I believe, help Thou my unbelief.

Please just work mightily in my body, my pituitary gland, my hormones to balance them out and stop this bleeding that is not meant to be.  If there is anything else I need to do, anything else I need to eat, I trust You now to tell me and make it plain to me.

I also ask Lord that You will guide me about Adrian.  He is / was my last hope until last week.  When I asked "who will heal me now?", Dearie said that You would.  And I believe him.

If Adrian is not the agent You are going to work through to heal me and if he will not be able to heal me of these allergies, I ask that You'll make it very plain to me when I should stop seeing him and stop wasting Dearie's hard-earned money on Adrian.  Please guide me very specifically in this Lord, because this money is not mine to waste, it was earned with Dearie's hard work and I really want to stretch it.

Thank You Lord for hearing my prayers.  I know that You have heard even if I don't "feel" it.  In Jesus Name I pray, Amen